Merry Christmas from the Buckets

Hey brothers and sisters!!!

I want to pop in (or poop in like Kit) and say MERRY CHRISTMAS! I love you all so very very much, all of you guys are indeed my Christmas presents, and the best ones I ever had honestly.

OK I am so sorry it's been a crazy week. I had to reboot the computer again Sunday morning, then Sunday night the power went out until 6:00 am Monday morning. So then on Monday I am trying to get home from work but I have been praying and praying for an extra 50 bucks just to buy some groceries and well honestly soap and toothpaste after all the bills are paid. I sat in my office and thought about how hanging on PJ's blog really did my faith factor in. It did much to open my eyes to truth, but it caused me to question sooooo much. Number 1 am a a smart enough, good enough or correct enough Christian? Yadda yadda yadda, but what suffered the most was my faith in my Father and what he can do. I just sat and apologized to him for letting Scratch steal my joy and belief and I said Lord, I know people have really really big problems, mine are nothing. But I am your child and I would really like it if someone would give me a 50.00 Walmart gift card like we used to get for Christmas here at work. I prayed exactly twice and I thanked him for it and my new computer that I will be able to buy, for all of you and for my little Momma. I planned on coming home from work early but when I went back to my main office at around 2:00 pm my neighbor had called me. in six years she has called me one time. I called her back thinking some horrible thing had happened, but she said "I know this sounds really wierd, but the Lord has laid on my heart to take you to Walmart and let you buy 50.00 worth of groceries and things you need. Do not tell him no, I know how you are. ) I nearly fainted! So I got out of work around 5:30 and took her shopping. Guys, he cares about us so much! Even these little things. I know this is so silly, but I have not been able to afford alot of things lately that I feel are not needs. I don't buy much fruit, milk or cereal. I love cereal! Like you all know I am sure, when we don't have these things we don't dwell on them, we just keep praising God for the things we do have! I had not let myself think about this stuff at all. So here I am in Walmart, in the cereal aisle, holding my box of Kashi crying like a baby! I am so embarrassed! I am crying now just typing it. I never even realized how much I limit God...I am so happy, not for the stupid cereal or my precious, obedient neighbor but for him coming down here for us. I love him so much!

I have battled depression since I was a kid too, and suicide is always the devils option out for me. He temps me with it at least once a month. Girls, I honestly say to you this gets better as we walk with Christ. I am CONVINCED that nothing can seperate me from the love of Jesus! No Powers! No demons of hell! NOTHING!

Lucy I am confused about this issue too but what you guys said about it all makes so much sense, God knows what is in our hearts and he knows what we can stand. I know with me that smoking, drinking, drugs all of it was some form of self destruction, maybe not as immediate but the same path I was on, suicide was just a quicker means to the same end for me. We think we are coping, but we are being tempted and tried. Paul was tempted too and he suffered depression greatly. I know personally fighting the battle with God is sooo much better than ever giving up, and it's better than being numb with medication, I do in no way put anyone down for being on medication. It saves lives, but for me the battle between my ears as FOM said so well is worth it even if I end up a little bruised and battered sometimes. God will always comfort us if we ask him! I have a great post I will put up tonight by Andrew Murray that really spoke to me about all of this. Look for it when you have time, I hope it will help you.

Anyway I have to run off to work, again but I love you all so much and I thank Jesus he gave us all each other! Reformed, I have been chomping at the bit wanting to defend you at Sola Dei Gloria! I am shoutin amen! Amen! And I have no problems jumping in and going at it, but God has restrained me. I know I needed to learn how to keep my fleshly mouth shut, and I guess you needed to speak your truth to people, without any help from me! I am so proud to call you my brother in Christ! Kari, Kit,Lisa you girls are the best! And sock monkeys are my favorite! I even have one hanging on the rearview mirror of my car. How funny and alike we all are. Kari, you are my little speckled pupster. Keep that chin up! I pray for you everyday with your family situation, God loves you guys so much. Kit how awesome that you got a good eval on your job, praise Jesus. Lisa, bubbles and love sweet sister! I pray that your husband finds a wonderful Job soon. And FOM and Lucy, you guys well you know how much I love you both!
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Maybe we are all one strange family, seperated at birth. Lord, what were you thinking? We will be in Heaven talking about the goofiest things! And who else would have Onslo in his dreadful t-shirt dreaming of beer for a Christmas post. Only us.

Love you all and have a wonderful Christmas!

That Bucket Woman...