Staying connected to the Vine

John 15:5 "I am the vine, you are the branches, He who abides in me, and I in him, bears much fruit; for without Me you can do nothing."

Why is it so hard to stay connected to the vine? Why is it so hard to abide in Christ continually? I am finding it increasingly difficult to stay connected sometimes. I was thinking earlier that it's like being in the ocean and the current carries you farther away from the shore and no matter how hard you try to paddle and swim back to the shore your efforts are futile. You desperately wait for high tide to come and push you back in to the safety of the shore. I am desperately needing that push from the Father in Heaven to get me back to safety, I know that I can't do it on my own.

How did I get all the way out here? Did I allow the cares of this life to choke the word out of me? I am in a tug of war with raising a family, keeping a home, paying the bills and taking care of other people and pets, these are the cares of this life that are keeping me from my first love. I haven't quite figured out how to take care of it all and stay connected to Jesus. I know God gave me this family to care for but how do I do it without neglecting Him? Oh how I desperately need a fresh filling of your spirit today Father, create in me a new heart and a right spirit. Oh lord I need a little more Mary and a little less Martha, Oh Lord hear my cry today I desperately need you to push me back, I can't get there on my own. I need some spiritual super glue, I don't want to get side tracked anymore! Praise your holy name Lord! Bless the Lord O my soul and all that is within me! I don't want to be lukewarm and spewed from you mouth. Burn out all that is not pleasing to you today Lord. Forgive me Lord. I need you Jesus, you are all I need!

Amen
Lucy


I apologize to all of you for this post, it all just came flooding in and I knew I had to write it. Maybe some of you struggle with the same thing sometimes. Pray for me that I hold out until the end. I think I feel better just to have it out.